I was looking at the people in my surrounding and couldn’t understand why I was feeling the way I was feeling. So alone, like there was no one there at all. Alone in the surrounding of 50 people. How could that be? People all around me having simple conversations about nothing at all really. But at least they didn’t feel alone, although I couldn’t know that for sure. Maybe some of them felt the same way but who knows.
Why do I feel this way? I really don’t know. Maybe it’s because I am really alone, I feel as though no one is there for me. I feel like no one has ever been there for me. The sadness in my heart needs to be filled soon because it feels like it’s about to be crumbled in a thousand pieces.
There is so much work to be done but I don’t have to motivation to do any of it, is it because of the sadness or is it because I’m just not up to it. I wish I knew